Family

sucks. That's all there is to say plain and simple. My aunt drove into town last week and surprised while I was at work. My boss (who is very understanding and beyond cool) let me leave early so I could spend the day with them (aunt, uncle and cousin). Well we had fun and found out that they will be in Orlando until Sunday. We thought "Cool because we'll be up there as well and we'll meet up." Well...I called my cousin and tentatively made plans with him. This was around 1 in the afternoon well by 7:00 p.m. that night we heard nothing from them. The next morning my aunt calls my mom to say she is on her way home and that they are in Atlanta, Georgia. We further find out that they were done with their thing at 7 and felt that it was to late to see us. I might add that that in and of itself was a flat out lie because the night before they went to see my sisters and did not get there till about 8:30 p.m. That was a slap in the face.

And it also seems that we have been completely shunned and ostracized (sp?) by our family. I honestly wish I could tell you all why but I don't have an answer. Fact..since as far back as I can remember they have always been jealous of me. Fact....I was told to my face by one cousin that one reason that I was hated was because I had a set of wheels. Fact..I live in Florida where wheels are a necessity. Fact...I worked my a** off for this car so excuse me. Fact...if you don't want to know the answer don't ask. Fact...that I was told I hate you is enough for me to know that I have been shunned and for no reason whatsoever.

So with that in mind I have realized (as I said in an earlier post) family is what you make of it. It does not have to be blood..as long as it is someone who cares about you. Family is those closest to you. So I may no longer have family in the blood sense but I have family in the "we're here for you always sense" and that is all that I need.

P.S. It hurts to be shunned and made an out cast but I've got thick skin so I'll slowly get over it. Hey it is there loss after all. I tried my best and sorry but I refuse to beg anyone to love me...family or not.

Apple Iphone 3G

After waiting four hours in a line I am now the proud owner of the newest addition to the Apple family: Iphone 3G. It was a fun wait one that I completely did not expect to do. I started out exclaiming that I would not upgrade but I am glad I did. First of all...the line was long but not that long. Throughout the line we were given free drinks from starbucks and just people watching. One thing about lines is that you meet people who you will never see again but you all have one thing in common and for that you get along amazingly well. All was going well until towards the end of the line when employees shouted that you had to be the primary accountholder to purchase and upgrade to the iphone 3g. This of course scared me because I am not the primary accountholder but the authorized user on the account. So when I question this new rule it started an argument between the manager and me and another girl. Why...because from the very beginning we were told that we were fine because we were the authorized users on the account. What was worse was that I was mere seconds away from purchasing the phone when this went down. Thankfully everything got worked out and I walked out with my phone and hours later sold my first generation for $150. Well it's almost a week and I've realized that I want the white one. What makes this even worse is that as of today all of the stores near me are now completely sold out of the white iphone. I kick myself for not just getting the white in the first place. But I have until the 25th to change it so I am sure that Apple will be replenishing their stock in the next week...if not then I will stay with what I have because either way I HEART MY IPHONE 3G!!

changes.

I've been blogging about making a change but that I was undecided about what to do. Well....I enrolled in school to get a second BA degree in marketing. I plan on working for a magazine or publishing firm. Whether it's going to be in NYC or out west that part is unknown. But I am excited about going back to school. Thank goodness for having an understanding boss. She has in the past has said that I am to smart to be a legal assistant for the rest of my life. Granted I could have become certified as a paralegal but that was always a last resort career. Business/marketing however was not. Like I said I have big dreams with this degree. It will open up a whole new career for me. Yes I may be a little late in the game but I'm not that late so who cares.

I am going to move forward.....

I have re-enrolled in FAU for my second bachelor's. I've decided that it'll either be hospitality management or marketing. I spoke with a guidance counselor Friday and now I am just waiting for my status to change to enrolled student so that I can sign up for classes. The counselor was of course trying to change my mind and just go right to a masters since I already have my b.a. But if I'm going to get a masters in a business program then I feel that I need a bachelor's in that particular subject matter. That and it'll hopefully boost up my GPA and then I can take the GRE and hopefully be done within the next two years. It seems a little crazy to be doing this all over again but as much as I love my job I just don't feel fulfilled. And that is what I am looking for. Fulfillment and just knowing that I have more than one option in a career. I want to be able to look back on my life and say I did all that I wanted and not for one moment have any regrets. In doing this I'll konw that I won't have any regrets.

Decisions, decisions....

I believe in the past I've mentioned that I've been deciding on what I really want out of my life in terms of a career. I'm a paralegal...I love what I do but on some days I wonder is this it??? I mean I had so many different goals and dreams and jobs throughout college. I wanted to be a computer programmer, a graphics designer, a job in public relations, a journalist working for a fashion magazine. And I ended up being a paralegal...like I said I love it but it's not what I want to do with the rest of my life and if by chance it is I'd rather do it somewhere other than Florida...like say NYC or even California or Georgia or North Carolina. I think you get my drift somewhere not in the state of sunny Florida. I've even debated going back to school for a second bachelor's degree in graphics / design or journalism. I'm just so confused...last week I even started browsing law firms in NYC that had job openings. If I've started doing that it means I am definitely serious about moving. But my one thing holding me back is my current job. I love where I work, my boss is in one word incredible. The pay is great. It's just so hard to say that I want to leave. And when I do leave I want it to be when I have a specific plan in motion. If I do go back to school, I can easily go at night and work days and do homework during the weekend and on Fridays. That's not a problem. If I find a new job...I want to have some money saved which means quite possibly the dream may be a few months away of coming true but it will be a reality. I'll tell you one thing: I'm scared. What if I end up making the wrong decision or what if in making my decision I end up in a better place than I ever imagined. I guess I'll just have to plunge and hope I come out on top. I'll keep you updated with what I've finally decided on.

Still no Mac

I'm going on one week without my MacBook. Never thought I'd need my
computer or feel so lost without it. Its pure torture and hell. Well
off to sleep.

Sent from my iPhone

Back from Vacation....

So I was in California from the 17th to the 24 and I am still recovering from a major case of jet lag. The trip itself was fun and awesome but the jet lag thing is sooo not cool. We went to Disneyland and Laguna Beach and hit up all the spots in L.A. Of course we did not go to the clubs but that's ok because our days were so long that we were tired by 8 at night. I gotta say I am glad to be back home for a number of reasons: gas prices, the fact that you have to pay for parking everywhere you go, taxes. I'll gladly pay 6.5% over 8.25% anyday. So let's do a little recap:

Day 1: we landed at 9:30 and got the rental by 10:30. The guy was supecool and upgraded us for an additional 10 bucks a day into an SUV that originally was going to be a convertible but with no navigation system which we desperately needed. So again the upgrade was an suv. we went to lunch at Mel's Diner since we couldn't check into our hotel until 3. California and Florida are on different ends of the spectrum. Florida is all flat and level and California is all about the hills which are awesome. Anyways, after lunch we checked in and slept for an hour then we headed to the Chinese Theatre and the Kodak Theatre and saw the walk of fame. Then we had dinner at P.F. Changs (I know not very original).

Day 2: We slept in and just traveled around L.A. and went to Melrose and Rodeo Drive. The best part was when we saw Jason Lee from "My Name is Earl". That was awesome to be standing mere feet away from a star. And the Beverly Center (a mall). That was pretty much day 2 since it was Sunday and everything closed early.

Day 3: Disneyland. Enough said. Although I must say that Disney World is wayyy better than Land.

Day 4: Laguna Beach and Santa Monica Pier. We also went to the Third Street Promenade.

Day 5, 6, 7: These days were all spent just driving around enjoying the scenery. We also went to see a cousin of ours who lives in California. By this time the weather went from hot to cold. And I'm ashamed to admit that the last few days were all just meshed together. But they were fun of course.

Day 8: The Final Day...we woke up late and lounged around until 2 when we checked out. I had gotten a late flight (10 p.m.) so we had an extra day in California. But like I said it was spent just louning around and relaxing and gearing up for our flight home. Once 2 came we checked out and went to a movie and had dinner. From there we turned the rental car in and went to the airport and waited to go home.

We landed at 6 a.m. the next day and showered and change and met up with my half brother his wife and kids. My sister-in-law and niece and nephews if we are going to get technical. And by we I meant me and my sisters. Like I said we had a blast and totally enjoyed ourselves in California. Now I'm ready to start planning for a mini stay in NYC my first favorite city.