It's been a few days since I last wrote. I am getting into this blogging thing. It cleanses me and helps me get things off my chest that I normally can't talk about. Most recently, a betrayal. And no it's not as dramatic as I make it sound but I have been betrayed. Not by a friend but by family. I have realized that even if they were to grovel and beg forgiveness on their hands and knees I will not nor can not ever forgive them. They have cut themselves out of my life through their own fault and none of my own. My cuz, who is 42, claims that she is hater free because they got deleted. Something she wrote on myspace. And that's fine but if I could talk to her I'd say actually no we deleted you when you started your immaturity. The only person you deleted was a child. But she does not seem to get that. She feels that once a person hits 18 they have no more feelings. Um, I am here to say not true. And at 42, let's face it you should not even be having haters. It shows how immature you really are. But with all that said...there is no forgiveness coming from me or anyone else in my home. I have moved on.
Another note...D the one that I've been getting annoyed with for NOT calling me has in fact been calling and we have been talking. And fact 1....at 26 he is just not taking life seriously. Fact 2...he is annoying me. What a horrible thing to say but oh so true. Fact 3...he is not taking life seriously (I know I repeated myself but it's true) and he is not even looking to get a decent job. He works as a cart pusher. Um, not to sound snotty and all high and mighty but that is a job for the 16-21 age group who are making their way through school and want money for fun things. It's not a job he should have. But that's just me. So now I need to know how to disantce myself from him because I just can't deal with someone who has no ambition in life. I am at an age where everything matters and I refuse to settle.
Another note....I am very super uber excited for my California trip coming up in May. I have never been and I can't wait.
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